The screaming so incessant in my mind

Stealing my sanity, my hope

Weak, pathetic, growing in my head

Socially unacceptable, wishing I was dead

Socially inept, useless, despised

Freak, deserving nothing but the lies

Wishing I could tear apart my eyes

Wishing I'd perfected my disguise

Running from a hate I can’t escape

Inside me, all around me as I break

Just kill me now and let me find some peace

Follow the fate of what's left of my beliefs

I once tried to bear this all

But now all I can do is fall

Just take me from this place I beg

I cannot do it myself

Coward on top of it all

and still I ever fall

I promise this is my time

Somewhere I had to draw the line

In this dream of light

The feeling washes over me

When times like this surround us

Blinded by all that we can see

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Dancing in time, dancing to the sound

Right now we feel so small

Dancing to the beat of the night

In darkness we fall

The idols we created among us

Rise above all we are

All we've lost in our hearts

Though through all we've come so far

Our hands are bound and we are silent

So much is left to do now

Glory is lost to us now

Though through this we thought that we had come so far

The promises I'd known I would keep

are floating in dust

Particles of despair sink into nothing

and the grip of despair has taken its toll on me

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I swore that things would change

but this is all there is

I didn't mean to let you down

I didn't mean to lie

I never wanted it to be this way

I should have been there

Now all of this has changed

But I swore and now I'm sorry it's this way

The times I took you by the hand

Squeezing so tight

A deathlike hold viced around you

and the time has come to seek redemption

And now we've left it all behind

So far away from me

This is lost, so far beyond now

The gods shamed to know us

Before you, hands held high above

I pray for wind and rain to save you

I justified the time I laid here

I sanctified the way I laid in fear

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I feel the world, it's dying breath

With its final words its final death

In its dreams once clear and pure

As it fades to nothing more

By my faith and by these fears

The recent days turn to distant years

And as the weight of time returns

We're left to dance in shadows

Inside this, nothing fades away

I hear our darkest whispers

I found a way to be here forever

And forever found a way to remain in me

Alone here, nothing is left

Spiraling out of control

Forever seems so far from here

And forever's a long way for me to be

Is this your own

Deep in your head

That worms its way

and eats its dead

That turns the tide

and whets its mouth

On broken dreams

Well out of reach

Is this your home

Buried in dirt

Betrayed by your kind

Consumed by hurt

Enveloped in bitterness

Broken by pride

Denied by your weakness

Insecurity and lies

Is this your grave

Where you were born

and lived surrounded by

fury and scorn

King of none but you

Alone, despised

There's no more words left

Nothing for you to take

Nowhere for you to hide

Just lies

I saw you staring at the sun

The gods drifted into shadow

Staring at the stars

Treading them below

Searching for light

Held in time to guide you

Bathed in dark

Wrapped in cold embrace

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Will your gods guide you

In silence will they teach you

With strength will they hold you

With care will they protect you

With healing arms surrounding

Soothing words to calm you

Let blind faith envelop you

Beautiful lies consume you

False hands raised high

Praying out of desperation

Your fear of dying

The gods weep now

Ghosts of a thousand years

Bear down on hollowed lives

Just a game played in vain

with the ghosts with a thousand names

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The voices have grown louder

I tried to bear this

But I'm losing ground so fast

I can't believe that this could last

I once knew the truth

It seemed so clear

Then it all turned bleak

and disappeared

It crept up behind me

and turned to lies

Hidden in the darkness, so despised

It’s coming closer

It's way too near

Driven by the silence

Feeding on fear

Stealing what's inside me

Taking all that I have left

Leaving me with nothing but

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Is this what you made yourself

Is this as far as you will go

Is this how you despise yourself

Is this what you needed to know

I spent so much time on you

I no longer knew what to do

How to live my own life

How to take it back from you

I never thought you were really sorry

Was that your only worry?

All you had left

Just never sorry

Would it take it away

Leave you with nothing someday

You lost it all

You threw it all away

The endless circle meets itself and time begins

On and on with patterns of angels bearing wings

We flew to heights of disbelief

Always searching for some relief

Never thought we'd come down so soon

Glowing in the darkness from the light of the moon

Glowing from the embers of distant fires

Driven to insanity by thieves and liars

Taken somewhere in my mind I never wanted to go

Forced to hear again the things I didn't want to know

Driven from our peaceful times

Following the winding converging lines

Meeting in a place we've never seen

Mysterious and sacrosanct, the harbor of our dreams

Alone within our wisdom in darkened lives

In among the chosen with bleeding knives

Defenders of the kingdom, rulers of our kind

Falling into the darkness of evil minds

I look to the clouds I search the sky

For the memory of your face

Disembodied elements

Still held in your embrace

I lost all of the times that I held true

Was it really you

So little left

To hold in my embrace

I talk to the air, look to the stars

I know you're gone

Into the earth

Forever my love

Forever your protector, you're my life

I'd die for your memory

Fight for one more touch

One more embrace

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And I will love you

To the ends of the earth

The end of my existence

To the end of the road