Lost in scenes of confused reactions

Encased in dreams of dissolving lies

I stand alone, humiliated

I know this has all gone too far

Glowing inside, my mind is racing

My body rising way too high

I danced with angels but their halo's burned me

I danced to music hidden deep inside

ch

I cannot take it back

The words that scarred us all

Everything I've done

Can I be forgiven

What's in my veins to keep me grounded

What flows through me to keep you safe

I killed the angels to keep you with me

Drowned in the guilty blood to stop your fear

The chemicals that keep me bound here

Necessary and yet so unclean

My dreams abandoned, lost in abstracts

Walls enclosing, my deeds obscene

(bridge)

I am the original

I'm the dreamers' past

Anachronistic

Anarchistic precipice

I burn in fires

hopes and desires

I know what I have done and

take my place in the sun

Can you smell the fire burning

I see fear in your eyes

I know the voice that haunts you

I want to tell you that it lies

When dreams all turn to nightmares

and sleep's something you fear

When pain has pushed you far from

all that you hold dear

ch

I'll stand in silence if it's what will get you through

I'll bear the cross if it takes the weight from you

I'll scream with you to scare away the night

I'll bleed for you so you can keep your strength to fight

I'll speak for you when you can't be heard

I'll listen even if you don't say a word

When hope is just a whisper

and the drugs just make you numb

When your soul lies naked on the ground

burned up by the sun

You're broken by the storm

and washed up in the rain

Your barriers are worn

and all you feel is pain

ch

I built this lighthouse just for you

A beacon in the dark

It's not enough to guide you home

Just enough to make a start

I never claimed perfection

I never claimed to see

past my own regrets

of who I chose to be

I cannot change my past

but I hope to change your mind

Inside my head I'm screaming from

mistakes I cannot hide

I wish that I could change

I wish that you could see

That the weight of this rejection

is the final blow for me

ch

Twisted words

buried deep

Promises

you just can't keep

I tried to rise

above myself

But it's too late to find you

I lost hope of redemption

Gave up my chance to fight

Too late to turn things back now

I cannot make it right

Words will never be enough

to show what's on my mind

There's nothing I could ever say

to comfort those behind

It isn't taken lightly

Those years I've always tried

but now's the time for action not for pride

(ch)

I know I've been a burden

although you'll disagree

but my mind's so fucking broken

that there's nothing left of me

Time has never passed me by

I have endured it all the way

I wanted to protect you from

the things that I have seen

The voices keep on whispering

I feel I live in dreams

I just can't keep on living in extremes

You said you'd never cause me pain

but I'm afraid that that's not true

Everyone elses' pain is

more heartbreaking to you

Everything I say drowns

it matters not a thing to you

all I feel is guilt if you know I feel the way I do

When I try to talk things through

there's always someone worse

Always someone feeling down

that need you by their side

I have to tell you I'm ok

else the guilt's too much to bear

The one person I always thought would care

You never protected me

I'm done protecting you

The noise is breaking out

Screaming words I'll never ever forget

The taste of ash remains,

the flames that withered from inside of me

Time is running out

The path I wandered is no longer in sight

The pride I held in me

Is fading as I head towards eternity

(ch)

As the skies grow overcast,

stealing the lives that couldn't last

Intentions never true

and only you

Stealing from the thieves

Engulfed in faith you can't believe

Just lies to make it through

but they won't help you

I lived what I believed

Endured in times I didn't think I could survive

Now time is gone

Regrets for everything I failed to be

Where did you go

That vacant look inside your eye says I'm alone

Now my battles done

The strength I had finally abandoned me

You know your words cut.
You sharpen them just for me,
aimed carefully
Your tongue bleeds over me
feeling every scar you make with pleasure

(As I take your tongue
I feel it coil around my hand,
slithering down, seeking hold
I grab it and squeeze tight
feeling it squirm, hearing the strangled screams
Pulling
Tugging
Ripping the foul knife from its home
Words drip down your throat
dying and red
Blood on your hands now
You fall)

But all I can do is stand
silent
Letting each scar open, watching the poison flow
and I do nothing

If you could choose your legacy

What would you send to comfort me

When all of this is through

tell me what to do

Through this pain I'm so aware

that it's too hard for me to bear

Nothing more seems true

tell me what to do

For all this time, through all this fear

the darkness grows from year to year

The silence came for you too late

now it won't abate

If time can heal the past

what if my memories won't last

When all the pain is gone

I will still go on

Hey you, tell me what you see there

Don't tell me that you missed the sudden change in your eyes

I know you better than you'd like me to

but I don't know if I like what you deny

For such a long time I pretended that

what I saw was just a reflection of me

I know the lies and shit you put me through

Making excuses that you're too blind to see

(ch)

I end my world for you

Dreaming my tears fade with you

Beating blue hearts remain true

I know that you have tried

I saw the scars

I saw what’s left in the shadow of your heart

I held you up to see the sun

To steal the stars

But it all just disappeared before your eyes

I saw how much it hurt you

Stained by lies

But I never knew what you had in your mind

I didn’t know

how to still your mind

I left it too long to correct what they had done

And it’s too late

To change what’s done

All I’ve left now is regret that you have gone

And in a moment I will turn you round

Keep you safe and keep you bound

From fear and worry you’ll be free

And the only choice I’ll leave is me

(ch)

A half meant smile

Trick or treat

In denial

Hide and seek

A faded whisper

A hollow breath

I’ll love you forever

I’ll love you to death

A memory locked and hidden away

In the hope it will disappear

Seeping through the bloodied wounds

Returning with never healed fear