I'm posting the lyrics in this format because....well, it's easier. Ignore the dates I will just be adding a bunch so some may be many many years old and some may be brand new. If I ever come to use them they will probably also be edited and hopefully improved. Oh and I know most are depressing, I write to get stuff out so there's often not a need when things are ok, I'm not that miserable all the time I swear.

Slowburn

November 5, 2011

Take me by the hand

Let love envelop me

See my grief flow through

As time flows past within me

 

Hold my head up high

This water’s rising fast

It feels so close this time

So certain I won’t last

 

I see you

Behind this mask lay eyes

Of steel and fire burn

My desire to see this end

My peace

The desire to see this burn

This fear

This fear

Burn my heart no more

 

Fighting to the end

Weakened by the tides

Weighed down by inconsequence

The futility of my demise

 

Talking to the demons

In the place of my mistrust

Within the guise of sacrifice

And the blackened heart of lust

 

I see you

Behind this mask lay eyes

Of steel and fire burn

My desire to see this end

My peace

The desire to see this burn

This fear

This fear

Burn my heart no more

 

Glowing eyes see through me

Sharpened teeth cut deep

Razor bites where once lay pride

Come rest eternal sleep

 

I see you

Behind this mask lay eyes

Of steel and fire burn

My desire to see this end

My peace

The desire to see this burn

This fear

This fear

Burn my heart no more

 

Defences

November 5, 2011

The ceilings are crashing in

These walls keep me bound

This weight now grows heavy

This knowledge I've found

 

From the wisdom imparted

and the warnings you gave

When I was drowning in sorrows

and thought I couldn't be saved

 

(ch)

In time now

I'll pretend I'm fine and

for now

I will hold away the madness in my mind

 

In time now

I'll pretend I'm fine and

for now

But I don't know how long I can last this time

I know I tried my hardest

and should you see me fall

I pushed so hard against defenses,

pushed so hard against you all

 

The sun it is departing

The clouds now ever scale

My soul is torn in pieces

and fades into the pale

 

(ch)

In time now

I'll pretend I'm fine and

for now

I will hold away the madness in my mind

 

In time now

I'll pretend I'm fine and

for now

But I don't know how long I can last this time

 

Rebirth

November 5, 2011

Thrown to the cold ground

Abandoned in the wasteland

Imprisoned in a dark room

Waiting for the end

 

Waiting for the time

when we begin a new life

unburdened by the backlog

Fears lost and found

 

Finding what we had

Searching for redemption

Falling by the wayside

Beaten down

 

We raise our heads as one

Blinking with the sunlight

Crawling from the wreckage

Tending wounds

 

Singing to our souls

Dancing to the heartbeat

Opened to the promise

of coming times

 

Opening our eyes

Reaching hands are open

Praying for forgiveness

with hope abound

 

Falter and fall (spoken word)

November 5, 2011

Flaming into the darkness

the ties that bind me here

grow weak

sinking into the deep

The light grows ever fainter

as I fall into the familiar and comforting

folds of oblivion

Save yourself

Let this go

Your words bring nothing now

Sneaking glimpses of what once was

what could have been

what seems so lost now

I rise above the distant past

the structures that I built

now fall

around me

Sealing the fates of millions

The light of hope consumed

by rubble and dust

Bring faith once lost to save us

from the gods we abandoned

Graven images scattered in the wind

to the ends of the earth

Faltering footsteps

stumbling

to the end of time

 

Stand

November 5, 2011

And this time I took the past

and I made myself a sinner.

All my prayers were made in vain

And now I am nothing more.

 

Every move a cry for help

‘till I opened to my damnation.

Whitewashed future, paid for past,

And now I am nothing more.

 

In your eyes I see my shame

And the light of my beginning.

Never wanting what they offer

now I am nothing more.

 

Relationship vacation

November 5, 2011

You smiled and wished me well

so convincing none could tell

bout the heartache that had led us to this place

 

As I wiped away a tear

I swore my thoughts would still be near

and tried to tell myself that this was not the end

 

The times I'd felt you sit so close

but inside were just a ghost

Just a reflection of the times that we had known

 

Relationship vacation

Personal hell of our own making

As we watched each other fall

As we watched each other fall

 

Eternity never felt so long

 

The time apart will heal us

Separation serve to free us

from the distance we have wandered from the path

 

But the nights just feel so cold now

Seems so long that I don't know how

to repair the damage done, forget the pain

 

Could it be that it's too late

Did we travel here by fate

Only time will tell if this can now be saved

 

Relationship vacation

Personal hell of our own making

As we watched each other fall

As we watched each other fall

 

Eternity never felt so long

 

This time

November 5, 2011

This time I know you mean it

This time I know we're through

You swallowed up my heart

So much more than you had to

 

The pain that sits inside me

for eternity will be

ever tearing but unspoken

Pain you will never see

 

So sure you'd never hurt me

So certain that you knew

how deep the feelings run inside

How completely I love you

 

I'm lost right now and hurting

Betrayed by what we had

This hatred, I just never saw

when things became so bad

This seething rage inside me

will hold my heart to bear

the knowledge that this fell apart

and that you never really cared.

 

Midnight is where the day begins (co-written with Ben Lugg)

November 5, 2011

Oh I feel as if my feet are giving away

I can't keep waiting for the start of a brand new day

These things I've seen are too much to contemplate

Watch the ashes burn it's already too late

 

‘Cause midnight is where the day begins

The memories fade before they surface within

This fallacy, it will not break me

This eternity, it will not shake me

 

In this dream departing light leaves no goodbye

I contemplate it all to be just one big lie

Initiating circumstance to grieve the brave

Within my temptation to see the grave

 

‘Cause midnight is where the day begins

The memories fade before they surface within

This fallacy, it will not break me

This eternity it will not shake me

 

A dawn awakens, my heart to break

My waiting almost over, all this I forsake

My witnesses interpreted, my mind to fast a pace

Indignities supported fake lawyers for your case

 

‘Cause midnight is where the day begins

The memories fade before they surface within

This fallacy, it will not break me

This eternity it will not shake me

 

I stand alone

November 5, 2011

My mind reels full of repercussions

in faraway places shall I shield

from walls of sound and distant longing

Crying for those we lost along the way

 

I stand alone on these shores of hope

one hand outstretched to halt the hands of time

I stand alone on these shores of hope

I tried to reach you, but I could not reach you

 

I heard you call so I ran for you

but the walls of illusion prevented me

I stand here now in distant thunder

straining to hear the cry of where you lay

 

I stand alone on these shores of hope

one hand outstretched to halt the hands of time

I stand alone on these shores of hope

I tried to reach you, but I could not reach you

 

Nobody special

November 5, 2011

I am nobody special

I am everyone’s fool

I gave up everything I had

To waste a lifetime with you

 

I’ve had a lifetime of sorrow

I’ve shared my piece of the blame

And all the plans that I made us

will end up worthless the same

 

I stand alone in the darkness

I stand alone in the rain

I stand with nothing to live for

I stand with nothing to gain

 

I hold your hand as I’m drowning

I know what we could have had

I see your face as I’m falling

And know there’s nothing within

 

It seems that there’s nothing left now

I’ve nothing left I can lose

And all that I’d ever hoped for

Has simply left me confused

 

If this is how it is ending

If this is all that I leave

All that I was is too damaged

All I can leave you is grief

 
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