The screaming so incessant in my mind

Stealing my sanity, my hope

Weak, pathetic, growing in my head

Socially unacceptable, wishing I was dead

Socially inept, useless, despised

Freak, deserving nothing but the lies

Wishing I could tear apart my eyes

Wishing I'd perfected my disguise

Running from a hate I can’t escape

Inside me, all around me as I break

Just kill me now and let me find some peace

Follow the fate of what's left of my beliefs

I once tried to bear this all

But now all I can do is fall

Just take me from this place I beg

I cannot do it myself

Coward on top of it all

and still I ever fall

I promise this is my time

Somewhere I had to draw the line

Flaming into the darkness

the ties that bind me here

grow weak

sinking into the deep

The light grows ever fainter

as I fall into the familiar and comforting

folds of oblivion

Save yourself

Let this go

Your words bring nothing now

Sneaking glimpses of what once was

what could have been

what seems so lost now

I rise above the distant past

the structures that I built

now fall

around me

Sealing the fates of millions

The light of hope consumed

by rubble and dust

Bring faith once lost to save us

from the gods we abandoned

Graven images scattered in the wind

to the ends of the earth

Faltering footsteps

stumbling

to the end of time 

(may have another verse for the start)

Give me the needle

I'll make you proud

Give me the needle

I'll show you why we scream so loud

A wayward consequence

that's taken hold

Your practiced arrogance

leaves you alone out in the cold

Give me the needle

You let me down

Give me the needle

I'll leave and fade without a sound

Self centred and unimpressed

Leave me disarrayed

Reluctant acquiesce

Too much that time can take away

Give me the needle

While you decide

Give me the needle

So I can hide from what's denied

Give me the needle

Escape

Escape

Give me the needle

Let me go

Blinding colours

Pulsing fear

Dark voices

in my ear

Secrets rising

Scratch my eyes

Ground shimmers

Built on lies

The feelings I buried

The thoughts I hide

A child left dying

when no-one tried

When you don't see me

I'm still right here

I'm feeling lost with the distance

Empty when you are near

and all I

feel is silence

on my tongue

Disappearing

Come undone

Scream to no-one

no-one's there

Strange voices

the only clear

thing left for me

I stand alone

Heart abandoned

Turned to stone

The streets silence flows around

a mist glistens, droplets isolated in the cold moonlight

(I can hear you)

Footsteps come from every direction

Slow and steady, pounding blood in my head

as I walk faster, keeping pace with a silent beat

(He's behind you)

I can't see but I can hear something

Creeping, creeping, so softly

filling my mind with dread

(Screaming at me)

The silence deafens, my mind confused

Shifting sideways glances

(I can see you)

Nothing there.....no one, but the footsteps follow

Time stops and hangs in the air

It tastes

sweet

Just for a second a lifetime flashes

and fades

(I know you)

memories cling to life

(Please leave me)

I climbed away once

(I didn't......)

(Help)

I hear the words

as if they were your own

Wrapping around me

as I come undone

Their comfort holds me

with a vicious last embrace

Evoking memories

of how you used to taste

ch

I said

I gave you words to call your own

I said

that I did not give up the dream

I said

this was worth more than it seemed

I said

that I could keep inside the screams

I hear the echoes

the words I long to hear

break the silence

and take away my fear

The fading signal

of the light left in my eyes

Dissolves to nothing but

these unspoken lies

ch

I gave you whispers

kept in a secret place

Tried to remember

when I truly saw your face

My heart was open

I tried to let you in

But you were closed and

all I ever saw was skin

Twisted up and thrown so far

Hard to remember who you are

I grow tired of all the lies and

wretched alibis, secrets wrapped tight

Hard to remember how to fight

It never seemed so dark before

Digging deep inside your soul

to find a rose, never whole

Shredded petals line the floor

to the sea.....to the sea

ch

When the shadows are calling

the water calls you home

let go the doubts that hold you

and be free, be free

It built up so much you swung so low

Feels like there's nowhere to go

and you are blind but you're afraid

Afraid to be alone but can't let go of doubt

so you resign yourself to go without

Bound in sound and out of bounds

Hiding from the truth again

Is there anything of you that remains

I can't bear to look anymore

and you're lost in sound, nothing but sound

I stand atop the tower you built

but with the weight you placed on me foundations crack

and I can't hold on

but I won't take the fall for you

ch

When the shadows are calling

the water calls you home

let go the doubts that hold you

and be free, be free

and I'll be watching in the shadows

when the waters pull you in

as the darkness embraces you

and takes your pain

free you from pain

free me from pain

no pain

You held my hand while I was drowning

You pulled me from the sea of pain

Not to be taken in again

I walk away with my eyes closed

I feel the guilt of my disguises

I feel the memories subside

I know the peace when you embrace me

I lose the darkness in your hold

Not to be taken in again

but your call finds me in the wind

I'm weak to it's gentle breeze

so calming in the night

I feel the need for you upon me

and I'm not going to fight

Not to be taken in again

but I remember so much more

I'm weak when you're not with me

but I don't want to fall again

Once you have me......you won't let go

Constricting consternation

Compressing cage of mine

Embrace your self-destruction

Death won't save you from yourself

I tried to keep my distance

You forced my hand in time

Picking off the debris

I'm feeling so divine

Ignore me at your peril

Disgrace me if you dare

but you'll start to realize

you should have learned to compromise

ch

Divide the sky by numbers

I control the thoughts you keep

I drown you in your nightmares

make you something just like me

Divide the sky by numbers

I control the thoughts you keep

I drown you in your nightmares

make you something just like me

and when there's just a shell

I fill you with regret

I'll watch you suffer,

watch you torn apart by your

constricting consternation

Compressing cage of mine

Embraced by self-destruction

Nothing comes to save you from yourself

I tried to keep my distance

You forced my hand this time

Picking off the debris

Destroy the asinine

Ignore me at your peril

Disgrace me if you dare

but you'll finally see that I

ch

Divide the sky by numbers

and control the thoughts you keep

I drown you in your nightmares

make you something just like me

Divide the sky by numbers

control the thoughts you keep

I drown you in your nightmares

and make you something worse than me

(bridge)

Words mean nothing now

Wrapped in black poison

If they ever did

it's too late caught in

Constricting consternation

Compressing cage of mine

Embrace your self-destruction

There's nothing that can save you from yourself

ch

Divide the sky by numbers

I control the thoughts you keep

I drown you in your nightmares

make you something just like me

Divide the sky by numbers

Control the thoughts you keep

I drown you in your nightmares

Until you become just like me

I walked the line you told me to

Followed every word

Followed everything I heard

Plastic faces haunting me

Chasing colours from the walls

Chasing patterns to a blur

(ch)

Calling out

But silence crowds

Voices scream and shadows surround

Voices tie me up inside

When the lights go down

Chalked into oblivion

Paranoid and atrophied

Paranoid identity

Agitate and complicate

Racing thoughts capture stars

Raging battles in my mind

(ch)

Whispers quiet from hell are sent

Render my body torn

Rend the flesh into the walls

Faceless visions never fade

Take me from this world

Take me from what I have heard

(ch)

Caustic liquid fills my veins

Time dissolves into a sound

Time's dissolving all around

Silence crashes to the ground

Waves of darkness line my eyes

Waves of tears line the reprieve

(ch)